Neutral, although i dont see you on the servers to much, my reasoning was summed up by a point made in your "Why would you like to be an admin"
with you saying " do try and stay chill most times however sometimes I get a little bit frustrated. " and " I would like to become admin as I try my best to follow the rules " if you want to be admin you should HAVE to follow the rules, you shouldnt be tring your best, you should already know the rules an follow them without needing to try, whereas "sometime i get a little bit frustrated" that could lead to an issue as it could only take a little thing which could spark a huge issue. As well as not meeting various requirements (not sure if you have spoken to a director yet about them)
Also what is your in game name when playing the servers? i dont think its TTT?